Serena Williams is still haunted by her experience at Indian Wells in 2001 and the mental anguish she says she endured when returning to the California event in 2015 after a lengthy boycott.
"Even when I went back 14 years later, it was very traumatizing," Williams said in an interview with Will Smith for "Red Table Talk" released Wednesday. "Talk about post-traumatic stress and mental anxiety. I remember sitting in the bathroom thinking, 'Wait, I'm not gonna go back. I just don't think I should do this. What if they start booing again?' It was really hard for me."
In 2001, Russia's Elena Dementieva accused Richard Williams of manipulating matches between his daughters Serena, then 19, and Venus Williams. The comment gained even more traction after Venus withdrew, with a knee injury, from her semifinal match against Serena just moments before it was slated to begin.
When Richard and Venus took their seats in the stands to support Serena in the final against Kim Clijsters, the crowd began loudly booing. Spectators continued to express anger toward Serena throughout the match.
Serena ultimately defeated Clijsters in three sets for her second title at Indian Wells, but the jeers continued well after the match concluded and grew louder as Serena went to embrace Venus and Richard courtside.
Richard said he was the target of several racial slurs throughout the match.
"It was so hard," Serena told Smith. "I'll never forget driving back, and [sister] Yetunde was there, and I remember just getting in the car and I was just bawling. I was at the gas station, there was no celebration, and I was just crying and crying and crying."
Serena has been vocal in the past about the toll that the incident took on her, including writing a first-person column for Time.com in 2015 ahead of her return to Indian Wells after a 14-year absence.
Her interview posted Wednesday, however, marked perhaps her most detailed account of what it was like going back to the event.
Smith portrays Richard Williams in the upcoming biopic "King Richard." Serena and Venus are executive producers on the project, and both were present for the sit-down interview with Smith.